"You never wanted this, no. But I’m afraid you absolutely did choose it. In a hundred ways, at a hundred thresholds, you pressed on. You sought knowledge relentlessly, and you always chose to see."
Except a cancer patient doesn't have a choice in what happened to them. Jon has had every opportunity to turn back, to turn away from this, his nature. But he rarely has.]
That was to save someone. Daisy was trapped. I had to get her out.
[Except he hadn't had to do anything. Basira had told him not to. He'd jumped head first into that coffin as much to alleviate his own sense of uselessness, helplessness, as anything else. And it had played directly into Elias' hands. Jon covers his face.
He's breaking. He's going to break and give into this. He should have told Martin, regardless of what Dorian wants. A part of him had always known this was a possibility, and he'd come anyway.]
I just want to help people... If I have these powers then, I- What's the point of them--[of him existing as this horrible creature]--if I... don't?
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"You never wanted this, no. But I’m afraid you absolutely did choose it. In a hundred ways, at a hundred thresholds, you pressed on. You sought knowledge relentlessly, and you always chose to see."
Except a cancer patient doesn't have a choice in what happened to them. Jon has had every opportunity to turn back, to turn away from this, his nature. But he rarely has.]
That was to save someone. Daisy was trapped. I had to get her out.
[Except he hadn't had to do anything. Basira had told him not to. He'd jumped head first into that coffin as much to alleviate his own sense of uselessness, helplessness, as anything else. And it had played directly into Elias' hands. Jon covers his face.
He's breaking. He's going to break and give into this. He should have told Martin, regardless of what Dorian wants. A part of him had always known this was a possibility, and he'd come anyway.]
I just want to help people... If I have these powers then, I- What's the point of them--[of him existing as this horrible creature]--if I... don't?