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"Hello. This is Dorian Gray's cellphone. I can't talk right now. Don't forget to leave me a message. If you're interesting, I'll get back to you."
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[ certain threads in this post contain nsfw content (sex, blood, violence, etc.) so, you know, don't read them where Gramma can look over your shoulder. just kind of a blanket trigger warning for gore & body horror as well ]
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[ certain threads in this post contain nsfw content (sex, blood, violence, etc.) so, you know, don't read them where Gramma can look over your shoulder. just kind of a blanket trigger warning for gore & body horror as well ]
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We both know how special I am. And we both know that I'm the best you're going to get, probably even better than you deserve! And yet I still— [ nope, he's biting it back, not gonna tell Yuri he loves him, not here, not now, not like this, he's not going to give him the satisfaction ]
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And hurts a lot more.
...a lot more than it should.]
If you deserve better, Dorian, don't let me keep you.
[Or do. If only for a few minutes longer.
You can spit obscenities at him all you like for the next few minutes. He's content just listening to you.]
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And yet somehow, he knows that this is different than him and Kate. He feels that this is his fault, it's got to be his fault, how can it be Yuri's fault? ]
There's a difference between deserving and wanting. [ siiigh ] This...dammit Yuri, I'm not going to let it end like this.
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During which Yuri reminds himself of something Dorian said: he doesn't deserve this. He wants it, that little slice of normalcy being with Dorian offers him, but that's precisely why he doesn't deserve it.
He hasn't atoned. He's still just a monster acting in the name of justice.
Speaking of which...he could have the last word. If he really wanted. But he knows that would drive Dorian to find him and he cannot have that.
...although he almost wants it. It would be preferred to the company of his hallucinations and the whispers of an old and vacant office building. Might even permit him the chance to answer for what he's done?]
I...
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You what?
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He could tell Dorian the truth. From the very beginning of his charade, to the point when it ceased being an act altogether. He could tell him that he's Lunatic, that he's the one responsible for having burned him alive...
Or he could withhold the truth and simply ask him to come to him. But that would mean explaining his condition. And his scars. It would mean more lies. But it would also mean more Dorian, and if there's one thing Yuri knows with certainty, it's that Petrov men are good at hurting the ones they love.
...or he could just. Hang up. There'd be no awful consequences for Dorian that way. Only for himself. But can he be so selfless?
The answer is...no.]
I want to see you.
[...]
But I'm going to hurt you if I do. I...don't think there's any way to avoid that.
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It couldn't be worse than that day in 1986, sitting by the ocean with Toby, watching his love die, turning to dust in the sunset. Nothing could be worse than that. ]
I want to see you also.
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Maurtia Falls.
[...a sinner through and through.]
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[He takes his time typing out the address and sending it, not because he wants to, but because he has to.
Fuck you, Hisoka.]
Ten minutes.
And...whatever happens, know that I truly am sorry.
[Ominous? Oh well.
He hangs up.]