There's over thirty people on the Barge. If you feel none of the thirty people want to be around you or care about you, then maybe the problem isn't the thirty people.
And I think you've made your point. So if you don't have anything else to say aside from the fact that I'm a shitty warden and a shitty friend and Pagan doesn't deserve my affection, why not focus on actually recovering from dying instead of yelling at people over the comms?
Because he deserves better than you. If you want to graduate, if you ever want to get the hell off this boat and go back to your life, you'll need to be friends with someone solely because you like them. No strings attached! Not because it's their job to pay attention to you, not because they're the only person here from your fucked up little plane crash polycule, but because you like them and enjoy their company and want to be with them even if you get the bare fucking minimum of their company in return.
But he's still here for a deal. He's still here for a reason. And I can still feel that he deserves better than someone who takes her addict girlfriend out for a booze and drugs run and then immediately fusses at me when I even broach the topic of offering up drugs myself.
Everyone's here for a deal. They're either here for a deal, here because of their guilt, or here because they're too scared to go back home. Nobody's altruistic enough to sign on just for fun.
I'll admit that he cares about you now. And hell, now that he's in here, he'll see it through because that's the sort of man he is. But my point is that he didn't join up because he wants to help fix all the broken little idiots of the world.
I'm not native, Dorian. I know that most people are selfish, petty, and cruel. I know that most people - including my friends - can't stand me, and don't like spending time around me.
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... And did you give Natalie any drugs after?
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You didn't answer my other questions.
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[ he is being a shit for the sake of being a shit. ]
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I'll admit that he cares about you now. And hell, now that he's in here, he'll see it through because that's the sort of man he is. But my point is that he didn't join up because he wants to help fix all the broken little idiots of the world.
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I'm not native, Dorian. I know that most people are selfish, petty, and cruel. I know that most people - including my friends - can't stand me, and don't like spending time around me.
But Pagan is different.
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[ because Dorian doesn't think she is. ]
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