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"Hello. This is Dorian Gray's cellphone. I can't talk right now. Don't forget to leave me a message. If you're interesting, I'll get back to you."
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[ certain threads in this post contain nsfw content (sex, blood, violence, etc.) so, you know, don't read them where Gramma can look over your shoulder. just kind of a blanket trigger warning for gore & body horror as well ]
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[ certain threads in this post contain nsfw content (sex, blood, violence, etc.) so, you know, don't read them where Gramma can look over your shoulder. just kind of a blanket trigger warning for gore & body horror as well ]
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What? [ he's said that like three times already. But Dorian can't think of what else to say. ] Surely you're joking.
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[He's not. He wishes he were, wishes this weren't necessary, but he needs to keep Dorian away.]
You know I'm not.
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[ because he can't be joking. ]
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Fine.]
A phase?
[Still strained, but now also so very, very cold.]
You were the phase.
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No. No, you can't be serious.
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It had been intoxicating.]
Don't be daft, Dorian. It's unsightly.
[But he can't allow himself to linger on those thoughts now, on the feelings he's...begun to harbor. If he does, he might have to kill Dorian again.
Before the other man attempts to kill him.]
There is...nothing more that I want from you. Nothing. It's over between us.
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That sadness was getting overruled by anger. ]
Fine. You know what? I don't care. I can easily have others instead of you—in fact, I had others while we were together. [ Well. He had Dio. ] I'm Dorian Gray, I can easily do better than some middle-aged tightwad desperately looking to reclaim his youth.
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[In the sense that your reaction is predictable to him. You're known for lashing out when you've been hurt. So this retaliation of yours? This little tantrum you're throwing because your precious pride can't stand the idea of rejection? Hardly makes a dent. Yuri sees it for what it truly is: a desperate attempt to bury deep that which hurts.
Good. Bury it so deep you forget. And leave him in peace. It will be better for the both of you.]
Try...not to slip back into your old habits.
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It's no use trying to be concerned. We both know you're incapable of that.
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You don't know what I'm capable of at all.
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[ seriously dude. party foul. ]
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But I don't. Because you're not.
Everyone's had you, isn't that right? That means...you're nothing special.
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We both know how special I am. And we both know that I'm the best you're going to get, probably even better than you deserve! And yet I still— [ nope, he's biting it back, not gonna tell Yuri he loves him, not here, not now, not like this, he's not going to give him the satisfaction ]
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And hurts a lot more.
...a lot more than it should.]
If you deserve better, Dorian, don't let me keep you.
[Or do. If only for a few minutes longer.
You can spit obscenities at him all you like for the next few minutes. He's content just listening to you.]
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And yet somehow, he knows that this is different than him and Kate. He feels that this is his fault, it's got to be his fault, how can it be Yuri's fault? ]
There's a difference between deserving and wanting. [ siiigh ] This...dammit Yuri, I'm not going to let it end like this.
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During which Yuri reminds himself of something Dorian said: he doesn't deserve this. He wants it, that little slice of normalcy being with Dorian offers him, but that's precisely why he doesn't deserve it.
He hasn't atoned. He's still just a monster acting in the name of justice.
Speaking of which...he could have the last word. If he really wanted. But he knows that would drive Dorian to find him and he cannot have that.
...although he almost wants it. It would be preferred to the company of his hallucinations and the whispers of an old and vacant office building. Might even permit him the chance to answer for what he's done?]
I...
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You what?
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He could tell Dorian the truth. From the very beginning of his charade, to the point when it ceased being an act altogether. He could tell him that he's Lunatic, that he's the one responsible for having burned him alive...
Or he could withhold the truth and simply ask him to come to him. But that would mean explaining his condition. And his scars. It would mean more lies. But it would also mean more Dorian, and if there's one thing Yuri knows with certainty, it's that Petrov men are good at hurting the ones they love.
...or he could just. Hang up. There'd be no awful consequences for Dorian that way. Only for himself. But can he be so selfless?
The answer is...no.]
I want to see you.
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But I'm going to hurt you if I do. I...don't think there's any way to avoid that.
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It couldn't be worse than that day in 1986, sitting by the ocean with Toby, watching his love die, turning to dust in the sunset. Nothing could be worse than that. ]
I want to see you also.
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Maurtia Falls.
[...a sinner through and through.]
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