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[tucky]

Yeah, well, Trixie deserves better than being my test subject.

[Tiffany sighs, flicking her gaze offscreen.]

She's-- so fucking much like me. Or how I used to be, and how I still kind of am. And I know how easy it is to fuck up somebody like that. I know how easy I get fucked up, and I'm scared I'd do it to her. I already have; we sorta had a big fight about it once. You're making this sound all easy, like a romance movie, but shit ain't all sunshine and rainbows, Dorian.

And also, what if she already liked somebody else? Somebody who was really good to her?

[Do you seriously not know about Kiryu, Dorian; how the hell do you not know about Kiryu]

[brushoff]

I know shit ain't all sunshine and rainbows. But I also know that Trixie deserves the world. She deserves people who love her and the fact that you're already worried about fucking her up means that I know you absolutely won't.

And newsflash, Tiffany! People can like multiple people! Sure nothing might happen, sure she's dating Kiryu, but doesn't she deserve to know she's wanted? She's loved?

[tucky]

Wait, you know about Kiryu? And you're still saying all this shit?

[brushoff]

Tiffany, when Godric and I were together, I was also fucking at least a few other people on the Barge. Love is complicated.

[tucky]

Yeah, but you know that's not most people, right?

... I didn't even know you and Godric were together.

[brushoff]

That's more people than you realize. They don't realize loving multiple people at once can happen until someone brings it up.

[ no comment about Godric! that's still a sore spot! ]

[tucky]

Yeah, well. I got no reason to think it's her or him, and saying this shit to somebody who's happy with somebody else is a real dick move, in my book. Especially considering all the other stuff.

She knows I love her. That's the important part. I don't know if it matters so much for her to know I kinda wish I'd kissed her once.

[brushoff]

But does it matter for you that she doesn't know you kinda wish you'd kissed her? You're allowed to be selfish, you know.

[tucky]

I don't want to be selfish like that. I don't wanna put my bullshit on her.

... And. Not saying anything is selfish, too, 'cause I don't wanna get shot down.

[brushoff]

What's wrong with being shot down? At least then you have an answer and not a series of what-ifs.

[tucky]

Well, I hate it; it feels like shit.

[brushoff]

That's when you get drunk, bitch with your friends, and find someone new to crush on. And when you grow enough stones to actually talk to her, I'll happily be one of the people to get you drunk, let you bitch, and point out the lovely ladies who are also worth your time.

[tucky]

I'm not even gay. Back when I used to have sex I was only into guys.

[brushoff]

[ ohhhh lord, he's going to have to walk Tiffany through a bisexual awakening, isn't he. ]

Right. Answer this, and be as honest as possible when you do: do you want to kiss Trixie?

[tucky]

I already said I kind of do, didn't I?

[brushoff]

Congratulations, Tiffany. You're not gay, but you're definitely bisexual.

[tucky]

I think I'm like straight with an exception.

[brushoff]

You know that's still called bisexual. If you only kiss girls when you're drunk then congratulations, you like kissing girls. If you only have one exception and she's a girl then congratulations, you still like girls.

The whole thing's a spectrum anyway. I'm bi but I prefer men. You're probably the same way.

[tucky]

Yeah, well.

All the other stuff I said's still true. And how the fuck did you-- how did we start talking about this? I was just thanking you for being a good warden and suddenly all this shit happened.

[brushoff]

Like you said. I'm a good warden. Even if the person I have to help out is a young woman who's having trouble coming to terms with herself.

I can keep secrets. So if you ever want to talk more about this, I'll listen.

[tucky]

I'm not having trouble coming to terms with myself.

[brushoff]

Keep telling yourself that.

[tucky]

Fuck you; I'm my own fucking person, and I know myself. I made myself.

[brushoff]

And you made yourself scared to admit that you like Trixie.

[tucky]

I don't give a shit if you make fun of me for that--

[Not actually true.]

Just don't say I don't know myself, or that you know me better than I do, 'cause that's bullshit and conceited.