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[tucky]

'Cause sex is important to being relationship material, and I live on the Barge and she's not gonna want to stay here forever. And I know she's not interested in me like that.

[Anymore. Ships passing in the night, etc. etc. etc.]

[brushoff]

Sex isn't the only thing that's important to being relationship material. If Jon Sims wanted me to be his boyfriend, I'd jump on the chance even though we'd never fuck.

[ Just casually said despite the fact that Jon...very much already has a boyfriend. ]

And there's nothing that says the two of you have to be together forever. Why not be happy for the moment?

[tucky]

Dorian, are you just teasing me? 'Cause it's not funny, okay.

[brushoff]

I'm serious as hell. Look, it's stupid to assume that Trixie will always be here. She could leave tomorrow, right under our noses. If that happens, what would you regret never telling her?

[tucky]

Nothing. I've told her everything that's worth saying.

[brushoff]

Keep telling yourself that.

[tucky]

Jesus Christ. Look, you don't--

You don't get it.

[brushoff]

Then explain it to me!

[tucky]

Because what if I'm wrong and I don't feel the way I kinda think I do, or I'm just getting shit mixed up in my head? That's thing number one; I got more coming.

[brushoff]

The only way to learn how you really feel about someone is to take the chance. Otherwise, you'll be living with maybes and what-ifs in your head for the rest of eternity.

[tucky]

Yeah, well, Trixie deserves better than being my test subject.

[Tiffany sighs, flicking her gaze offscreen.]

She's-- so fucking much like me. Or how I used to be, and how I still kind of am. And I know how easy it is to fuck up somebody like that. I know how easy I get fucked up, and I'm scared I'd do it to her. I already have; we sorta had a big fight about it once. You're making this sound all easy, like a romance movie, but shit ain't all sunshine and rainbows, Dorian.

And also, what if she already liked somebody else? Somebody who was really good to her?

[Do you seriously not know about Kiryu, Dorian; how the hell do you not know about Kiryu]

[brushoff]

I know shit ain't all sunshine and rainbows. But I also know that Trixie deserves the world. She deserves people who love her and the fact that you're already worried about fucking her up means that I know you absolutely won't.

And newsflash, Tiffany! People can like multiple people! Sure nothing might happen, sure she's dating Kiryu, but doesn't she deserve to know she's wanted? She's loved?

[tucky]

Wait, you know about Kiryu? And you're still saying all this shit?

[brushoff]

Tiffany, when Godric and I were together, I was also fucking at least a few other people on the Barge. Love is complicated.

[tucky]

Yeah, but you know that's not most people, right?

... I didn't even know you and Godric were together.

[brushoff]

That's more people than you realize. They don't realize loving multiple people at once can happen until someone brings it up.

[ no comment about Godric! that's still a sore spot! ]

[tucky]

Yeah, well. I got no reason to think it's her or him, and saying this shit to somebody who's happy with somebody else is a real dick move, in my book. Especially considering all the other stuff.

She knows I love her. That's the important part. I don't know if it matters so much for her to know I kinda wish I'd kissed her once.

[brushoff]

But does it matter for you that she doesn't know you kinda wish you'd kissed her? You're allowed to be selfish, you know.

[tucky]

I don't want to be selfish like that. I don't wanna put my bullshit on her.

... And. Not saying anything is selfish, too, 'cause I don't wanna get shot down.

[brushoff]

What's wrong with being shot down? At least then you have an answer and not a series of what-ifs.

[tucky]

Well, I hate it; it feels like shit.

[brushoff]

That's when you get drunk, bitch with your friends, and find someone new to crush on. And when you grow enough stones to actually talk to her, I'll happily be one of the people to get you drunk, let you bitch, and point out the lovely ladies who are also worth your time.

[tucky]

I'm not even gay. Back when I used to have sex I was only into guys.

[brushoff]

[ ohhhh lord, he's going to have to walk Tiffany through a bisexual awakening, isn't he. ]

Right. Answer this, and be as honest as possible when you do: do you want to kiss Trixie?

[tucky]

I already said I kind of do, didn't I?